Monday, January 23, 2012

An Open Letter To The Examiner


Dear Sir/Madam,

I am a final year graduation student. I have had a really adventurous experience with the exams over the last three years. Since mine is a full time degree course and exams happen twice in a year, I spend the whole semester killing time, attending classes with half the mind, roaming around instead of going library and gossiping instead of group studying. Not my fault. The classes end by the second week of December and it makes practically no sense in waking up at 8am in cold winter just to go college. So I stay at flat in my cozy bed when the winter is on its bitter most mood and that staying at flat-waking up at 11am-watching sky-facebooking-hanging out in the evening-watching movies-sleeping late continues till 21 of December. when I realise the exams are nearing and should 'really start studying'. Once again problem arises with new released movie DON-2, making my mind to set and thought that at-least make it last yar.

      The books and  notes are arranged . Day schedules are made, how much to study in how many days is decided, a public declaration in the family, on facebook and on twitter is made ' my exams are going to begin, don't disturb me while I'm studying please!. The first day is spent walking into the reading room and searching for a place, and while looking at the syllabus and solving some important que,( chal na kitna padega, kuch kake athe haithe day wil end. Next day A book is opened, reading of the introductory chapter begins and the next thing that happens is waking up with a hurting neck cuz of falling asleep on the library study table. And then such cycles of falling asleep with open books are more frequent, (starting trouble).When everyone around you is buzzing 'kitna padh liya?' And you say 'abhi tak kuch bhi nai!' It’s a lil shameful to reply that every time so I really try studying. If I bunk for reading room, people think I'm studying in my room all day long, when instead I sleep, check updates on fb continuously even though I know nothing is happening, play chess ( it is addictive, really!) , check tweets and not reply them, check blog stats, read new blogposts and think to self 'I'll surely write something good once exams are over' and then go back to books, yawn and fall asleep again. 

Then in the last 4 days, but reserved 31 night for celebration., realization hits like a speeding truck : 'you're gonna fail if you don't study now!' So an emergency study schedule is made, studying for 14 hours a day, yes! And then out of planned 14 hours, only 8 hours of studying actually happens. The exams begin. So I'm there in the examination hall, all by myself. Now I know everyone is all by themselves but there are some chics who aren’t, they flirt with the invigilator who in turn let them cheat from the girl sitting next to them, I can never ever do that.  

I pray to god to help me score atleasssst 60% in the given subject. I write my paper so neatly, underline the headlines, use a black pen to highlight the important words, present my best handwriting, and finish the paper a little after the 2nd half hour. I look around and I see everyone still writing! I wonder what's there to write so much, panic a bit, go through my paper again but find no words to add. So I go to searching 1 marks but it wil also not happening. The pattern is repeated in the rest papers. You see, I don't leave my paper empty nor do I write useless stories. I write the required material. That means a little less load on you to go through, still you sir, never give me good marks. 

Waiting for results is an entirely different story I’m skipping here. You give me just enough marks to land at a 60 percent over all. Myself starts taunting 'sale itne number bhi kyun layi,is se acha fail hi ho jati' and the whole day is wasted. There are even more remarks about not deserving the gift for such meager marks which are ignored. But the point is sir, if you mark my papers with keeping those points in your mind, how much hurt would be by seeing me cry for not scoring enough, I would really, really wish you well and not curse as 'kamine examiner ki wife must’ve denied him *blah blah blah* so uska gussa mera paper check karte time nikala'. You see, how much better everything would be if you are a little kind-hearted while checking those papers? You would be loved by people you don't even know!

Well, I have done my exams, hope you've read this before announcing the result sir!

Your Sincere
'Can't study every day at all!' Student